As I lie in bed wide awake and ponder on many things that are going on and have passed me by I close my eyes in peace. There are many people I have not given gratitude to recently. These people are the reason I am the woman I am today, I could not have trekked through the many days, months and years without each and everyone of you. So this is for you....
For my one and only, my Elmer Fudd.
How you can make me so upset and mad to the point of stomping feet with frustration.
You are the very same person who can make my breath stand still and stomach flutter.
You are the dance in my heart. You are my best friend, my enemy in an argument, the you of I love you and the person who believes in me sometimes more than I believe in myself. You are my partner in crime. Thank you for being there, catching my tears, staying through the low points and most of all believing in us and holding my hand....til death do us part.
You gave me life, you made a choice 25 years ago, it was me.
Thank you for making that choice, for raising me and putting up with my many transitions I have been through over the years.
You are part of my reflection, part of my soul.
Always and forever I carry a piece of you and as they say I become more and more like you everyday. A little odd, out spoken with a big heart, I am proud to say I am your daughter. I love you.
Thank you for taking me in, making me one of your own. With little to know about being a daddy or what it meant to love unconditionally, I must say you found a way.
Thank you for sharing your last name, playing catch with me in the yard and always treating me as a daughter. I miss you alot and I love you.
My little flower, the angel under my wing I am so proud to say I am your big sister. Very far from home and far from the heart for so long you were always a missing piece of me. Now we are one and close again I have missed you and love you dearly.
My other two little ones. With distance between us and years apart, I have always wanted to be your role model and guidance to this crazy crazy world. For a while it was hard but now I feel I am able to show a positive out look and impact. I love you both so very much, keep becoming the man and woman you are meant to be.
When I think of you I think of healing, you helped me through the most difficult times of life. Thank you for taking me in, helping transform me into the beginning of what I am today. I am so thankful for your guidance, friendship and love. I miss the memories, the times we shared, I miss you. I love you.
You let the spiders crawl, crawl all over my legs. I couldn't believe it and I still can't believe how long our friendship has lasted. They say you only have a few true best friends in your life and you are the one. Thank you for being there, for locking me out ;), and for forgiving. You are such a great friend and I love you.
When I think of you both separately well it is hard to think of you separately. I can not describe the respect, appreciation and guidance I have received. Ultimately my way was guided with your love, support and belief in me. There are not many words to describe how deep my love and appreciate run. I could not imagine not having such strong influence and guidance, I am thankful for you believing in me. Thank you for giving me open arms and unconditional love through all of my misbehaves. You will most certainly be the "this is because of...." upon my recent and future accomplishments. I love you both so very much, you have instilled courage and faith in me, in myself. You are always with me daily and I love you.
For all of my family, thank you for being there. Thank you for showing your support. Many days I feel it is impossible but little comments even about my silly facebook photos make the day a little brighter and easier to go on. Never know what little words can do for another, I thank you for your genuine simple ways of caring. I love you.
To all of my newest and oldest of friends, thank you for being there. You are amazing people in these hard times. May the memories we have made and continue to make in this journey always be a smile on our face. Sticking it through is so much easier with every single one of your kind advice, support and lending arms.
For the long, late night conversations about gossip and plans, you keep the fun in studying and the pro on professional procrastinators. You have become a dear friend of mine and I thank you for that friendship, you are great. There is never a doubt, if ever I need a friend to agree with me it is your voice I call. You take my back, protect my heart and are such an awesome person to look up to. Congrats on your recent offer and thank you so very much for all of the support you have given these past few months.
My little munchkin, you keep my sanity.
When all the world is going crazy and I feel I can't go on, you make reality come into view.
I am so grateful for you, for the wonderful privilege of being your mommy. I love you.
And last but certainly not least I want to thank the Big Man upstairs. He is the one, he is my strength and I do all things through the grace of his love. He has blessed me in so many ways, just look up above. Thank you, thank you for everything you have given me, thank you for forgiveness and thank you for life. There is not many things I would have accomplished without your love.